Love You, Hate You, Miss You by Elizabeth Scott

How would you feel if you killed your best friend? This is the question that plagues Amy, the survivor of a horrible car crash. Freshly released from rehab after a 75 day stint, Amy struggles to redefine her life now that she has to fit in without the one person who understood her and the "crutches" they shared.

Amy's parents' infatuation with one another drives her need for affection and attention. Her drinking, drug-using, and casual sex lifestyle are her coping mechanisms. Her deceased best friend Julia shared these things with her. Amy is now confronted with the loss of her best friend, the overwhelming guilt she feels for causing that loss, and the difficult adjustment of sobriety.

Her shrink asks her to keep a diary of her experience as a way to help examine what she is going through. Her journal becomes letters to Julia where she finally explores and discovers her true "friendship." While following this path Amy will gain an understanding of her parents, confront her long ignored and suppressed demons, and find a new friend in all this turmoil.

While at times this can be a difficult and emotional read, I strongly recommend it. Also, although I don't believe in a rating system for books, this one does have some slightly more mature content that might not be okay for younger, less-advanced teens.